战胜惧怕！

直到今天，我终于战胜了！我终于勇敢面对我の惧怕了！感谢主！
难怪，心情真的好开心，从内心感到喜乐 <3 雨过天晴！
~ 总之，没有任何东西能让我这么开心！

感谢主，今天才让我知道，我一路的选择，都是对的！感谢主，你的话语一直带领我。让我形成今天的我。

今天，念到这个:

On this day of your life, Hii, we believe God wants you to know ... that what you are most afraid of is where your greatest rewards are.

If all you had to do was wish for something and you would have it, life would be pretty boring, wouldn't it? God placed barriers between us and what we want, so we can enjoy interesting and satisfying lives. God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barriers - our deepest fears. God wants us to face our fears, and hold ground in their presence, and let them go, and that's how we get out biggest rewards. What are you most afraid of? Say it, just start by saying it.

一个月前，我决定了，主动跟婆婆和好。那是看起来，真的很难。而且，我也低不下头来。可
是，圣灵的领导，让我的扩张我的境界，让我一次一次的勇敢，主动到他面前。感谢主。现在，
我们的关系比以前更好了~ 都没大声说话。我现在轻声跟他说话，他都听得到 :)




Thanks God for your wonderful plan on me <3

那该有多好？

如果是这样，那该有多好？ 好想每天都很幸福。没烦恼。。。家就是避难所。
我不想久久一次握着这种感觉。我好累，每一次失去了，也会崩溃。看...妈回去了，又emo了~
我不想每天呆在这里，好像宿舍，可是又没自由。很严肃，没人能跟我聊天。反而还要我，每天小心翼翼の保持我跟婆の感情~ 我一个人坚持不住. 每次有问题的时候，舅舅都来在我身上。


没有一个人会明白我的生活，因为他们吃得好住的好，只有我，每天是对着婆婆. 默默地帮它，关心她。希望有天她接受上帝，就每天不会 无盼望 の感觉。 可是魔鬼非常狡猾，每一次都破坏我们，让我们的感情更疏远. 我会坚持，活在上帝里！阿门！

旅行の失恋感 =(

最近，好多朋友买了Airasia. 加上今天做了噩梦！梦见我和朋友推着篮子，尽管grab你要的紮货物品。It's freeeee! Then we run and run in the supermarket just grab whatever we want as long as the trolley can accommodate. 可是，一醒来好失望哦~为什么每次让我做那么多失望の梦 ='( 连买iPhoneの梦也做了两三次! D:

今天让我想起，我去不了的旅行の，Bangkok. 今年八月本来可以很开心の非常兴奋の到Bangkok玩。我等了足足一年哦！每天都想着，幻想着~血拼!参观~玩耍~没想到，就在一个星期之前，我的梦碎了！我很惨，很可怜。哭道我眼睛都肿了！我只是礼貌の，尊重の问大舅，我可以去吗？我知道我考得不及格，可也很难过啊~现在都新的学期了~ 读书，你也逼不了人的啊。没有鼓励的话，反而还中骂. 习惯就好。我不喜欢就是这样.

后来，我失恋了.从来都没有这种感觉，好像放不下 Bangkok。 失恋的很深哦~ T.T 送Bubutt 去机场的时候，我忍~ 可是，就是check-in 的时候，看到 我们两个的名字，他就只是勾他的名字，我心好痛啊~！！！ 我为什么不能去，当场就大哭~
现在...想到回去，还是会哭 T.T 之后事情就连连~我也懒惰说。

我成绩不好，每个人跟我有仇。责怪，责骂...什么事情都冲这我来.满身痛也怪我，老了也怪我~听了心里面，多么想咒他，可是不敢 >.<''' 算了，尽然不是上帝の旨意，我只好接受。可是，我真的还放不下，回忆很深刻，伤的也很深。 =( 阿爸父~ 你救救我吧。。。拜~

contact lens model :P

漂亮吗？朋友找我做他の模特儿。哈哈....人当然美，可是 EPIC　FAIL! 

哈哈哈。。。知道为什么吗？

美瞳の线条都看不到~ >.<'''

还得重拍叻... T.T

mummy came from Brunei for 2days only. Really missed her and hope she will not leaving me agn ='(

anyway, i've lots of fun and busy shopping with mummy! <3 

i've longing for shopping for decades of time and thanks mummy bought me lotsa things that i wonder for so long. *touched*

thanks for giving me things that i want since u have not much money for now. 

what i've done with her:

me so like this one!!!!! =) thanks mummy, forced me to buy this even though i keep refusing to take this~ 

 a nice smile from mummy. i asked her to smile brighter, looks younger! she believed, thats why she's pretty~ :P

mummy very patient, obedient, loving, generous. i must take mummy as my model!

playing with nail manicure >.<'''' take some tools and french nail colours from mummy she has bought from parkson. kinda expensive yo~ >.<

mummy intro! 日本拌饭料! niceeeeeeeeeeeee!

must go buy one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUST BUY!

mummy bought me these...so touched... T.T 

im craving for shopping almost 2 years :'(

words from mummy~

testimonials note book. i shud tranfer to here and stop using the cimb notebook XD

p/s:

thanks God, for your wonderful blessings..ur even greater blessing to me. T.T
thanks God for mummy's life changed, and turned into christian :')
thanks God for my piano ministry in youth! *that i've been waiting for 5-7years*
thanks God that You gave me confident enough to break my record in singing class today! :D
GOD, thanks for Your LOVE <3

AMEN! <3